Novembre 1st, 2007, 6:25 am, something happened that changed my life forever.
I nearly lost everything. I nearly destroyed all that i have, all that i have worked for, all that others have worked for.
I nearly lost my freedom, i nearly lost my life. From then on, i went through what is still, and hopefully ever will be the most horrific, frightening experience of all my existence,
That night, sit in a dark room, my body wretched as i cried. I was in pieces. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat.
I couldn't move. I was clutching one of my friends that night, he was crying too. He was shouting for his mother.
I remember staring out my window. I have never, in my whole life, enven considered suicide.
I store at my window. The feeling of actually wanting to end your own life is unreal.
I remember being sick as soon as the thought occured. I lived with this everyday.
I tried to smile, but there was always this darkness, feeding on the back of my mind, Constantly reminding.
But by some miracle, i survived this. Its something i will never forget. And alltough i look back in shame, i don't look back in regret. I have been taught a great lesson. I will never take what i have for granted ever again. Next to no one knows this secret i carry, next to no one probably ever will.
- OLIVER SCOTT SYKES